Sometimes I think I’m the strangest young woman on the planet, or at least the most unusual. But here I am, nearly twenty years old, running from romantic relationships. Sometimes that fact makes me wonder if there’s something wrong with me. Even those women who have accepted their single status seem to yearn for that special someone. Don’t get me wrong. I do yearn for that special someone. Someday. But for now I have embraced the fact that it isn’t time for him yet, and I refuse to let him be the focus of my thoughts. (Except for certain occasions, like as I write this now.)
My coworkers don’t believe me when I insist that, should Prince Charming walk through the doors of my office today, I’d send him right back out. Perhaps if they knew my reasons, they’d be the first to shut the door in his face. What my coworkers don’t realize is that I made a covenant with God several years ago. And a covenant with God is not something to be taken lightly.
It all started with my parents’ decision not to let me date until I was sixteen. Of course, by the time I actually turned sixteen, I had witnessed too many bad high school relationships. That wasn’t going to be my fate. I decided that my high school years must be meant for so much more than a dating relationship. With the encouragement of my mentor, I dedicated five years straight to seeking God alone. Five precious years to cultivate my relationship with Him without the distraction of any other.
Which is where I am today. I can’t believe how much time has passed, how much I’ve fallen in love with Jesus, and how much deeper I’m continuing to press into Him. It’s not like my time with Him is over. My five years are not yet up. But even when they end, though I will hopefully marry and raise a new generation of Jesus-lovers, I know that my covenant remains. I gave Jesus five years to prepare me to love Him forever.
It’s not because I’m unusual (though that’s up for debate); it’s because I’m called. Jesus has drawn me to Himself for such a time as this. For now He is my greatest love, and my greatest love He shall remain… Five years and forever.
🙂 I read your recent post about not having a boyfriend which led me to this entry 🙂
This is so encouraging and such a GOD thing for me right now. From late last year the 1st of December to be exact I prayed to GOD along with a friend for accountability that I would set 2years from that date onwards to be just single. And I remember another friend who knew about it asked, why 2years and not 1 as it seemed a long time. And I remembered just saying, “just cause” I really didn’t know but 2 years was what was in my heart and there were times when doubt creeps in and I go, “Wait maybe I can do just a year” but know what? You are absolutely right. GOD has been so gracious reminding me how I came to that decision. I know that there is so much more to be learned and that this single season is for molding me and preparing me to be that woman whose heart is fully after GOD’s own heart 🙂 I don’t think I’ll ever get “there” and have it altogether but I know that all GOD sees and cares about is our hearts. I can’t wait to see what He has instore for me.
Thanks so much for this 🙂 This is one of those confirmation things. Sooo cool 🙂 Sorry about the long reply, hehe…
Bless you 🙂
No apologies necessary. I love getting feedback from my readers. It makes me remember that this blog is so much bigger than I am. I’m glad God has used my writing to touch your heart in some way. And you’re right, you’ll never get “there” or have it altogether, and there are most definitely going to be doubts. That’s why we need to keep encouraging each other to stay faithful. Thank you so much for your reply!