I Refuse to Wait

My roommate and I have decided that we’ve missed half of the year. What I mean by that is, it’s the last day of August and I hardly remember experiencing the first. Thus far, 2012 has been one, big blur which is kind of disappointing amidst all my “live the journey” talk.

Because I haven’t been living the journey. I haven’t been embracing the moments like I should.

I’ve been getting caught up in the big things and allowing the rest to simply slip by. But the problem is, life isn’t comprised of the big things. It’s the little things—the everyday things—that I’m missing. And there went most of my year…

Sometimes living Beyond Waiting is easy, but lately it’s been hard. Sometimes I can lose myself in wonder without even realizing I’m doing it, but recently I’ve had to remind myself to be impressed by the little things. Recently, I’ve been repeating the phrase, “I refuse to wait.” Because living—truly living—it would seem, is a choice. And waiting—merely waiting—comes far too easily.

Time and time again, I find myself getting caught up in anticipation of the big moments, forgetting that each day is a gift. That the day I’m living right now will never be lived again. (And some days I’m thankful for that, but for the most part…)

I’ve spent most of my life waiting for tomorrow and missed far too many todays.

But right now, in this moment, I have a chance to change that pattern. I can choose not to spend my time waiting. I can turn my mind from future worries and live—simply live—today.

God gives me a handful of moments and it’s up to me to decide if I’m going to cradle them to my chest or watch them fall around my feet.

Today, I can boldly say that I refuse to wait, as I take my first step toward embracing wonder anew.

4 thoughts on “I Refuse to Wait

  1. Thank you for your thoughts. I love what you’re saying. You’re blog has been a wonderful encouragement in my own journey.

  2. “I’ve spent most of my life waiting for tomorrow and missed far too many todays.” Rebekah, that is amazing that you say this only because this is the very thing the Lord has been impressing upon my *own* heart in the last week! 🙂 Thank you for this encouragement! And thank you for your openness and honesty! I don’t think there are enough young ladies in the world who share both sides of the coin, if you will and who are being “real” enough in their day-to-day struggles. 🙂 Glad to see you are one of them! Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts, it was a blessed encouragement to me! 😀

    God bless my sister in Christ!

    • So, tomorrow’s post will show just how faithful God is to lift His children above their struggles. A mere hours after I wrote this post, God threw me in with a handful of wonder-struck preschoolers who reminded me of what it means to truly live. I think God likes it when we’re honest with Him, ourselves, and others.

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