(The following is an excerpt from Renee Fisher’s new ebook Loves Me Not. She asked if I’d be willing to let her guest post in order to spread the word about her latest release. Of course I said “yes” because Renee was such a blessing when I needed to find places to promote Beyond Waiting. Also, I love the idea of writing a letter to my former self. I think I’m going to try it out after scheduling this post!)
“It’s not until you’re satisfied in God that He’ll bring you someone.”
I was far from content.
If nothing else, it was the complete opposite.
I told God that He was late, and I tried to do my own thing because I was tired of all the waiting around.
I’m sure God chuckled about my attitude, but that didn’t stop Him from bringing me “the one.” Some days I look back on my past and think, If only I knew. If only my former self knew God could and would bring my future husband to me in spite of my attitude. He certainly didn’t need my help. It wasn’t up to me to be the perfect Christian and try to help Him along.
Recently, I wrote a letter to my former self because there are a few things that I know now that I didn’t know then, but wished I did. It is my hope that after reading this letter you might try in your own words to write a letter as well. Who knows, maybe you’ll realize you really are being your own person!
Letter to My Former Self:
I wish I could invent a time machine so I could go back and tell you a secret. Also, tell you how beautiful and brave and fierce you have become. A woman who loves God and isn’t afraid to show it.
Many girls wish they had your confidence.
You may not believe that now, but someday you’ll see it.
Then I’d tell my former self the secret I’ve been dying to tell her: you WILL meet your handsome prince.
You will not be single forever.
You will lose weight and find another, better job.
I know she’s held on to that prayer request for years—cherished it in her heart even.
Hoped. Prayed for that day when she’d no longer be single.
I wish I could tell her not to grow bitter and jaded because of her “single” relationship status.
It makes me so sad to look back at my former self and see her lose all hope. She thought she had nothing left to give. That her world was over. It wasn’t, although it was sure close.
I wish I could tell her that her dreams of working in ministry alongside her husband will come true, just not the way she expected but better. That’s the part she gave up on. I so, so wish she stopped assuming things about her future.
I wish she had just let her prayers climb and continue climbing higher and higher until they reached the throne room of God.
Her future husband wasn’t to be found through online dating, but she already knew that.
Her future husband was busy like her and needed more time. (This was a good thing.)
She just needed to find herself first. (This was and still is the most important thing.)
(***Random Intrusion from Rebekah: Please, please, please don’t lose sight of the most important thing! You belong to Jesus, girl. There’s no love story more beautiful than that of the God who died for you!***)
Renee Fisher, the Devotional Diva®, is the spirited speaker and author of Faithbook of Jesus, Not Another Dating Book, Forgiving Others, Forgiving Me, and Loves Me Not. A graduate of Biola University, Renee’s mission in life is to “spur others forward” (Hebrews 10:24) using the lessons learned from her own trials to encourage others in their walk with God. She and her husband, Marc, live in California with their dog, Star. Learn more about Renee at www.devotionaldiva.com.