Hopes and dreams and time wasted wishing I could fast-forward to the big moments already. So much of my life is spent waiting for things I never make happen. And I wonder where I would be right now if I pursued things as recklessly as I dream of doing.
So many hours compiled of wasted moments, strung together on the threads of my distraction. And I think it’s because there’s a shadow of doubt in me.
I’m not brave enough to challenge You to catch me when I leap.
But what if I was? What if I plunged headfirst into the unknown? What if I charged into the places I want to claim without fear or trepidation? What if I lived fully abandoned to You and the calling You have placed on my life?
Why is it so easy to cling to the comfortable and familiar when the after effects of the two are but a shadow of what my life was meant to be?
But somewhere in the corners of my mind, I hear You whisper:
“Life. Abundant Life.”
Bubbling over. Bursting at the seams. Spinning in ecstasy.
I settle. For so much less than You would offer me. For a life much simpler than Your grand design.
And I convince myself that this is the best there is while my heart remains carved out like a tree a woodpecker has claimed for its own—hollow, empty, resounding.
And You come knocking, knocking, knocking… to reveal what I’ve been missing all along.
Life. Abundant Life.
Life as I don’t know it.